While I was with you, there was so much frustration. I shed countless tears at your demands of me and became emotionally exhausted. I felt such anger towards you at times. You moved the goalposts and put up brick walls, just when I thought we were getting somewhere.
You weren’t always punctual. Sometimes you were forgetful. Some nights you gave me no rest. Sometimes you made me feel inadequate, or as though I was asking too much of you.
In spite of all this, with time I have softened and see that much of the negativity towards you is irrelevant now. It all distills down. There is no point me holding on to it anymore.
So I am letting go. This letter is, in fact, to show my gratitude.
Because you were there for me when I needed you. Because you knew what to do. Things went wrong but you knew how to right them.
Our rocky times together pale into insignificance as I look to the future, so full of potential. I am filled with gratitude for this present, and that future.
I am here.
They are here.
I am a mother.
National Health Service – your whole may not be perfect, but your parts are often wonderful. Thank you for seeing me through.